Its time to stop. To think. To question the self and see if you can find a new way to proceed. Otherwise just put aside that camera and do something else.
Asim Rafiqui says exactly what I am only able to express in vague, unhappy grunts. Too much love for his writing.
The handover process is in full swing - with or without a replacement - and I've had to engage in uncomfortable self-reflection. What does it mean to be in charge? What have I learnt? I've always known that I would be an unpleasant person - I have no patience, no tact, and I'm too prone to arrogance. I warned them all at the beginning. I may yell at you, but I'll always apologise later. But only if I'm wrong. Which I won't be. Or something to that effect.
Today, I received one of the best compliments of my life: "Jess, you are so rude, but you feel our pulse."
How on earth did they ever put up with me? Love them to death.